Finding Faith Through Loss: My Journey

My salvation journey has always been on and off, especially growing up in an African Christian household. I was raised in a household where going to church was a must; there was no other choice about church.

Fast ahead to me as an adult, now married with a family of my own. The shift came for me when we lost my one and only younger sister unexpectedly.

It was a tough time for my mom and me.

Going through this strengthened our bond with each other as family. It also drew us closer to God. This was due to constant prayer and reading of scripture.

I had to leave my husband with our soon-to-be two-year-old daughter. I traveled all the way to Seattle, Washington, to see my sister.

I saw her battling for her life.

I remember before getting to Seattle while on the plane. I was constantly saying a silent prayer. I cried out to God to please save her and asked for a miracle.

Between my mom and myself, we had to make plans on going out there. My mom managed to get a flight the next day.

I was finally found a flight two to three days later.

I finally saw my sister. The sight of her broke my heart. I tried to stay strong for my mom, as her oldest daughter. As her oldest I had to be there for her.

Seeing my sister on that hospital bed stirred many emotions in me. Constantly putting my trust in God for a miracle.

During our stay, we read scriptures Psalm 91 for protection of God over her or Psalm 23 to her. We prayed and talked to her. We also encouraged her to push through while trusting God.

I was getting closer to God. He was showing me things through dreams and visions.

The day we went there to see her last, I woke up having a dream. In it, God told me He’s got her. She is with Him.

The joy and happiness I felt were immense. I thought we were going to get her back. I was thinking he meant he’s got her and will save her.

But that was not the case. He was actually telling me she is with him. He is taking her to heaven with him.

We accepted it as the will of God. Over the past few years, my sister had been battling with so many issues in her life. We believed God told her to come home. He saw she was not ready for other things to come her way in the future.

I was upset with myself. I felt that I should have been there for her more. I needed to be more available, loving, compassionate, and accepting. That maybe by doing these thing I have saved her.

Has any ever felt guilty for not being more involved in the life of their loved ones? How did you get through it?

After that, I was given several visions of her all throughout the day from God.

In one of my visions, I saw her in traditional Yoruba wedding attire. She looked flawless and had no blemishes. She radiated with a beautiful smile and was dancing.

It was like a wedding celebration that was taking place, which i believe is the groom welcoming his bride. Which biblical Christ symbolizes the groom and my sister as the bride into the Heavenly kingdom.

With this vision knew God was telling me she has passed over to the heavenly realm.

I was happy and sad at the same time. I had to accept this because, at the end of the day, God’s will always prevails.

Have you ever had visions or dream about your someone’s passing?

How long did it take to accept it?

I finally told my mom she had already passed over. We needed to let her go.

I can’t imagine how my mom felt as a mother who lost her baby. I understand because I can’t imagine losing my own daughter.

I went from being an older sister to being the only child left. My daughter is now my mom’s only grandchild and source of happiness.

And my daughter also lost an aunt. She was getting to know her. She loved being around her whenever we saw her.

How did you break the news to little ones about the passing of an older relative?

My sister was later pronounced brain dead; February 22nd of 2023 was the hardest day for our family.

We got to meet people who cared for her. Some of my sister’s coworkers came to say their final goodbyes. Friends also visited.

We had to make plans about her burial. But, I had to go home and attend to my family. While I was out there, my daughter got very sick and needed me to be home.

While going through this i was also constantly praying for God to let her soul rest in peace.

I learned a valuable lesson from losing my sister. That lesson was that life is too short. We should not waste time on unnecessary things that God is trying to get us out of those things.

What valuable lessons did you learn from God?

I had to leave my mom out there with some friends and family and fly back.

My husband and daughter kept me so busy during all this. I did not have time to process everything. I couldn’t find a moment to myself.

I was also juggling work, planning a funeral, and taking care of a soon-to-be two-year-old little girl.

And the final kicker of it all was that my job knew I was going through loss. They did not care. They decided to let me go in the middle of everything.

What crazy thing or things happened to you while dealing with the loss of a family member?

The period from February to the month of June felt like one of the longest. I wasn’t capable of processing everything yet.

But through all these things God was faithful and true.

A month right after my job let me go, God blessed with a better job with more flexibility. To that i give him glory and honor.

What blessings did you get after going through loss?

I guess I was bottling everything up unintentionally and trying to stay strong.

Around this time, I was not strengthening my relationship with God. I was merely going through the motions of my duties as the oldest daughter.

I had become the only child of my mom.

It is now March 25, 2026, and three years have passed. I have come full circle to have a relationship with Christ. I ask Him to strengthen my faith each day.

Reading the word of the Father, which is like water to my heart where my faith is housed.

While constantly praying, seeking him through scripture, prayer and now being capable of actually fasting, while trying to emulate Christ.

My relationship went from up and down to God finally arresting my heart and turning my heart back to him.

How did God grab your attention to focus on him?

Now I can’t imagine a life without the Heavenly Father. I do not want to ever go back to the old me. I have tasted the world. I have seen the world. I know what the world has.

After experiencing Christ, I know the difference. I do not miss anything in the world.

What is your own experience with Christ?

After giving my life, I am aware of the Holy Spirit in me. I am now capable of giving up the things of the world. I do not want to be a part of it.

The veil the enemy placed over my eyes has been lifted. The greatest gift that Christ gave me was salvation.

I pray for salvation for the world. I hope those that do not know him will get to experience him.

Once they experience him, they never go back because walking with Christ is walking in freedom.

So by me writing this blog is my way of giving back to the Heavenly Father, and Christ Jesus.

This is my way of thanking God for my salvation. I pray that anyone reading this experiences the true joy and peace.

What are you doing to thank God for the salvation he has given you?

These blessings come from the one who died on the cross. He rose from the grave and freed the souls held captive by Satan. He then took them into heaven.

With giving ones life to Christ brings redemption, freedom, joy, happiness and so much more. I just want the world to really try him and there is no better time than now.

Life is too short. Anything can happen at any moment. The time that you think you have is cut short.

Have anyone of you experience something similar?

Please kindly share or comment your own journey to Faith, loss, redemption, forgiveness, acceptance and growth. And how it shaped your life below.

Through sharing your story, you can be the catalyst to bring about change in their life or voice of encouragement.

Also leave specific questions or thoughts, they are very much welcomed.