Author: annalawren28

Have You Ask God to Heal Your Heart?

Matthew 6: 14 – 15 states, For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:

But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

Matthew 6: 14 – 15

“For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:

But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”

KJV

There is no greater love like God’s love despite the sins of man from the beginning of time, never once has he forsaken or left us.

Rather than being angry with us, he shows us compassion and mercy.

He loved us so much that he gave his only son, to redeem us by Christ sacrificing his life on the cross to buy us back from the hands of Satan.

A perfect lamb was slain to free us from the spiritual bondage of sin.

Psalm 103: 8 – 14 says, The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.

He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor reward us according to our iniquities.

For as the Heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

As Far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us ( This is talking about Jesus).

Like as a Father pitieth his children, so the LORD pitieth them that fear him.

For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

As Far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us ( This is talking about Jesus).

God is merciful and gracious to forgive our sins.

So why are we as humans not able to forgive the little things anyone’s done to us?

Why do we let our emotions, which the enemy uses to easily manipulate us, unless submitted unto God cause us to sin?

Jesus forgave us our sins and willingly died to save us.

So what right do we have to withhold forgiveness from the next person?

We want Jesus to overlook and forgive our everyday living of sins, but we are not even able to forgive a common man who either bumped us, stole from us or did the very things we have done to others.

I know forgiving cannot be easy to do, but asking God to help us to forgive can help us to heal, let go and forgive.

Why are we so quick to forget that the most powerful of all forgave us as he died on that cross?

After completely surrendering my life to Christ, my view on forgiveness has changed.

Just as i pray for God to forgive me, i also pray for him to search me and if he finds anything i have not forgiven anyone for, i ask that he helps me to forgive, heal, and let go. Because who am i not to forgive anyone who have wronged me.

The book of Ephesians 4:32 says, and be ye kind one to another tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

Ephesians 4:32

and be ye kind one to another tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

KJV

Apart from Christ, every man and woman is born a sinner. so what makes you so special that you feel like you cannot forgive your mother, father, brother, sister, husband, wife, children for anything they have done?

Or why you cannot forgive your husband or wife for cheating on you or that coworker that plotted and schemed their way to getting that promotion you think you deserve?

Be careful of that bad fruit coming forth without you being aware of it. You are unawarely creating a sense of entitlement in you, along with bitterness and every evil fruit there is of.

Do we not realize that forgiving and hanging on to every hurt and pain that was dealt to us, we are hanging on to that very thing Jesus said he already paid the price for?

You not forgiving is like you telling Jesus, i know you died on the cross to save me, but i am going to hang on to this pain and hurt a little long than necessary because i am find it comfortable to hold onto. Holding on to the very thing we ask God to free us from or help with.

You are now taking on this pain you don’t want to let go and creating a loop hole or access point for the enemy to use as a way of enter and reside.

Jesus even said in Matthew 18: 21 – 22; 23 – 24 “Then came peter to him, and said Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and i forgive him? till seven time?

Jesus saith unto him, i say not unto thee, until seven times but, until seventy times seven.”

Then the scripture moves unto the story Jesus told about an unforgiving servant.

It says,

“Therefore is the kingdom of heaven liken unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.

And when he had begun to be reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand (the modern equivalent ranges from three billion to over hundred billion dollars).

But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.

The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, lord, have patience with me, and i will pay thee all.

Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.

But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellow servants which owed him an hundred pence (the modern equivalent is worth around one dollar and thirty-two cents): and he laid hangs on him, and took him by the throat, saying pay me that thou owest.

And his fellow servant fell down at his feet, and sought him, saying, have patience with me, and i will pay thee all.

And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt.

So when his fellow servants say what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.

Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, o thou wicked servant, i forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me:

Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellow servant, even as i had pity on thee?

And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him.

Then Jesus went on to say in verse 35, so likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not everyone his brother their trespasses.

So please ask yourselves this question, if God is to collect on all the debt we owe him, are we able to pay it all back like the servant to his lord?

Jesus forgave us, so what is keeping you from forgiving those who have hurt you?

Here is my challenge to you. Ask God to search deep within your heart and if there is someone in your life that you find difficult to forgive. Ask God to help you to surrender all of it to him.

Then ask him to heal you, then to help you to forgive whomever it is, and lastly reach out to that person and tell them you have forgiven them, unless it is a life threatening situation then confess it to God from the depth of your heart that you have forgiven that person or persons and then thank God for that healing, because it is not by power, nor by your might, but by the spirit of the living God.

Thank you God for your gift of grace and mercy that you have shown us. God search with our hearts for any unresolved hurt and pain that is keeping us from aligning to your will and reveal it to us, that you can begin the healing process in us, help us to forgive and let go of everything hurt, pain, bitterness and wall that we have built due to it. That we may have reasons to glorify and magnify your name till eternity, in Jesus name we pray. Amen.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post and pray the Lord’s anointing would begin his transformation and healing in you in his Holy name, Amen.

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Seeking God’s Purpose: A Journey with Jesus (Part 3)

Gains

What you get when you give your life to Christ are as followed:
  • Freedom
  • Peace of mind, body, and soul (that surpasses all understanding)
  • Grace
  • Love
  • Compassion
  • Hope
  • Joy
  • New identity in Christ
  • Sense of direction
  • Freedom from addiction
  • Breakthroughs
  • Spirit of discernment to know who God has truly placed in your life to help you and those whom Satan sent to distract you or destroy you.
  • Debt free
  • A distaste for sin, which makes you want to stay away from sin or anyone that lives in it. Which prevents other situations from happening
  • Protection from those who are not really for you that are lying in wait to destroy you (they see you as an enemy and not a friend or family).

They don’t want you to live better or be better. They want you down and trapped.

This list goes on, on what Christ bring to the table.

These are the things and more that Christ brought into my life and after experiencing his salvation, peace of mind, body and soul. I never want to go back to the old me.

John 14: 27

“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

Question to you.

What has Christ brought to your table and what has the world really offered you that is better than what Christ can do?

Christ has brought peace that surpasses all understanding (meaning peace in the time when there was chaos in my life), love, joy, forgiveness, and so much more.

Also ask yourself are you living right for Christ?

I try my best to live for Christ, I know I am a sinner and I am not perfect, but through Christ I am made perfect and whole.

Have you giving your life to Christ?

I have given my life to Christ.

Do you have a relationship with Christ?

I do have a relationship with Christ and it has been one of the best decision of my life.

Please share your experiences in the comments below, your testimony or story so others can know that they are not alone on this journey

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Identity Through Christ

Your identity in Christ begins the minute you repent from sin and accept Christ as your Lord and personal Savior. From then on you have automatically adopted the new identity and a lot of people do not know what great strength that gives you.

The basic foundation is rooted in your identity and this shapes how you live your life onward.

The old covenant that was made for the Israelites started with God to Abraham and ended with John The Baptize, who paved the way for Christ, through Christ a new covenant was made for all mankind and not limited to one nation and through him came salvation.

Through His salvation came a new identity in him, with that identity we also gained access to the Holy Spirit, who lives within us the minute we surrender to Christ.

If we look into Luke 16:16 it says, “The Law and the prophets were until John: Since that time the Kingdom of God is preached, and every man presseth into it.”

Luke 16:16

“The Law and the prophets were until John: Since that time the Kingdom of God is preached, and every man presseth into it.”

KJV

This is to say that the covenant from the old testament was fulfilled and ended with John the Baptize.

The old testament talked about the coming of Jesus, who is the lamb that was sacrificed to birth a new covenant, through Jesus a new era of preaching of repentance and salvation started with Christ the Lord, leading to his cruxifiction.

By him taking on our sins and having it nailed with him on the cross to save not just Israelites that believed in him but also all of mankind, who believe in him by surrendering to him and repenting from their sins.

Luke 10:19 says “Behold, i give unto power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.”

Luke 10:19

“Behold, i give unto power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.”

This identity in Christ is a solid foundation to have to help you when you are facing trials, tribulations, and spiritual warfare with the enemy.

Through this identity we are equipped with the Word of God, the Holy Spirit, the name above all names Jesus, and the blood of Jesus which is the blood of the lamb that was slain to atone for our sins.

So know this that greater is he that is in you, than the world heareth them.

1 John 4:4

“Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he who is in the world.”

So know this truth, whenever the enemy comes forth with lies and deceptions.

Matthew 6:9-13

Our Father which art in heaven Hallowed be thy name

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, forever. Amen.

Stay blessed and in the word of God. May the Holy Spirit lead and guide you throughout your day in Jesus name. Amen.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, i pray that it blesses you as much as it has blessed me.

POWER IN THE WORD OF GOD

A lot of us want God’s healing without truelyserving him, we want the gifts he gives like the prodigal son without having the relationship with him.

We want to dip our feet just a tiny bit in the water without immersing our whole self into the water of life.

If you read the book of Matthew to John, you will see how the multitude would follow Jesus, wanting healing and cleansing but never took in some of his teachings and there were some who took it in and were changed for the better and want or needed more. This is like the Parable Jesus spoke about in the bible, this is in Mark 4: 3-9.

Mark 4: 3-9

Hearken; Behold, there went out a sower to sow:

And it came to pass, as he sowed some fell by the way side, and then fowls of the air came and devoured it up.

And some fell on stony ground, where it had not much earth and immediately it sprang up, because it had no depth of earth:

But when the sun was up, it was scorched; and because it had no root, it withered away.

And some fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up, and choked it, and it yielded no fruit.

And other fell on good ground, and did yield fruit that sprang up and increased; and brought forth some thirty, and some sixty, and some an hundred.”

Jesus then went on to make clear of his parable to his disciples because they did not understand what he was saying. He broke it down to them in verse 14 to 20 saying.

Mark 4: 14-20

The sower soweth the word. And these are they by the way side, where the word is sown; but when they have heard, Satan cometh immediately and taketh away the word that was sown in their hearts.

And these are they likewise which are sown on stony ground; who when they have heard the word, immediately receive it with gladness;

And have no roots in themselves, and so endure but for a time: afterward, when affliction or persecution ariseth for the world’s sake, immediately they are offended.

And these are which are sown among thorns; such as hear the word, and the cares of this world, and the deceitfulness of riches, and the lusts of other things entering in, choke the word, and it becometh unfruitful.

And these are they which are sown on good ground; such as hear the word, and receive it, bring forth fruit, some thirty fold, some sixty, and some an hundred.

The word of God is a living and active word, that when you start reading it, you will find yourself wanting to read more to know more about Jesus. With reading and knowing more daily you start to realize that the seeds of the word of God has been planted and is starting to germinate within your heart.

You start noticing you having distates for thing of this world. your old habits do not satisfy you any longer and you want more of the things that are of God.

Through the word of God the seeds of Faith which is the word of God has been planted and as long as you stay in the word daily, your faith in God will begin to grow.

In Romans 10:17 it says.

Romans 10:17

Faith cometh by hearing, and hearing the word of God.

By reading the word of God the seed of Faith as small as a grain of mustard seed gets planted in your heart. The more you immerse yourself in the word daily your Faith grows strong and steady and becomes unshakeable and unmoveable because as along as your heart which is the soil is ready to receive the word of God that seed will surely grow.This also brings in mind the word of Jesus in Matthew 6: 33.

Matthew 6:33

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and these things shall be added unto you.

In other word start your day with seeking the word of God first and also pray, then will everything else be given to you by God.

Seeking the word of God will start off your day right, by planting the word of God in your heart and it helps set your day to where you are bringing God’s presence into everything for that day.

Through reading of the word you start to build a relationship with God and having the desires to please him, know him and align with him.

The word of God is more than a word, it is a living breathing word that can turn your life for the better. Rather than spending your time reading novels, self-help books, how about trying to open the word of God and get to know who God truly really is and i promise you that once you do, your never going to be the same again or wanting the old you.

I thank God and give all glory to him, who still loves me despite my flaws and saw the good in me, when nobody else did. He is my redeemer and my one and only God, whom i will serve for all eternity.

Glory be to you God of the universe, creator of Heaven and Earth, be thou glorified and magnified in Jesus name, Amen.

Please let me know how this message has helped or impact you and also if you have any questions. Thank you.

God’s Commandments: Love and Revelation in Scripture

As i was spending time with God this morning, the Holy Spirit put in my heart to read 1 John 5:3 which states:

1 John 5:3

For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous.

NKJV

I then went back starting from the beginning of the chapter and kept reading until i got to verse 7 and read up until chapter 12. But as i was reading verse 7 and 8 a revelation hit me.

1 John 5:7-8

7 For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three agree in one.

8 And there are three that bear witness in earth, the Spirit, and the water, and the blood: and these three agree in one.

NKJV

After reading this two verses, i went back to Genesis 1:2-4 where it says

Genesis 1: 2-4

2 and the Earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

NKJV

The revelation that hit gave me a confirmation that Jesus the son of God is the Word of life, as he has said in John 14:10-11.

John 14:10-11
10 Believest thou that I am in the Father, and the Father in me? the words that I speak unto you I speak not of myself: but the Father that dwelleth in me, he doeth the works.

11 Believe me that i am in the Father, and the Father in me: or else believe me for the very works’ sake.

NKJV

The Holy Trinity which are the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit that are one are also the Father, the Word, and the Holy Spirit.

I then looked into Genesis and realized that Jesus’s claim of him being in the Father and the Father being in him is very true because in the book of Genesis 3-4 where God said the word “Let there be light and there was light. Jesus was the word that was spoken by God, which brought forth light.

This is why the statement of “I am the light of the world” is true. He is the light of the world because he is the word of light that the Father called forth for when creating Heaven and Earth.

The Word was in the Father that he spoke creating light, the Word hold the embodiment of the Father.

The three Holy Trinity were present at the beginning of creation. The Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters, this was referring to the Holy Spirit.

All of this to show forth whom the Father is.

How great is the Heavenly Father. Thank you Heavenly Father for revealing this to me through your Spirit. Glory be unto your name Oh God, Almighty, ruler of the Universe.

I pray that this revelation that was given to me to share blesses every reader and pray in touches every heart In Jesus Name, Amen.

The Journey of Surrendering to God- Part 1

What does it mean to Surrender to God’s Will?

Surrendering to God’s Will means to die to one’s self and give all control to God.

This is one of the hardest thing to do, how do i know this?

I know this because I am still learning how to do this myself.

Surrendering means that you are making a choice of trusting God’s plans over yours, giving him everything.

From your worries, anxieties, anger, sadness, happiness, stress and so much more.

This means submitting to God’s guidance.

I also find myself needing to submit to God’s guidance every single day, second, minutes, hours, days, weeks, moths, and years.

A perfect example would be part of the Lord’s prayer found in

Matthew 6:10: “Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.”

KJV

This would mean completely dying to self and accepting God wholeheartedly no matter how hard it gets.

Proverbs 3:5-6: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths.

KJV

The thing with us is that we tend to things that God wants totally perfection when surrendering to him but that is not quite true.

No one is more perfect that Christ Jesus whom was pure and clean lamb who came to earth and took up all of our sins, so that we can be presented to the Father as perfect every time we come before the Father.

We think that we need to get our lives in order before we can finally accept Christ and give our live to him.

Stop sinning before we can repent.

Luke 19:10

“For son of Man came to seek and save the lost”.

Luke 15: 4-7

“What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?

And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.

And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbors, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for i have found my sheep which was lost.

I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.”

KJV

Elderly man wearing a brown jacket and knit hat holding a white lamb outdoors at sunset
A smiling elderly farmer warmly holds a lamb with sunset hills in the background.

This is to say that everytime a sinner repents, heaven rejoices. God would rather want you to keep getting up each time you fall and keep trying than give up and stay in sin forever.

I am no exception, we were all born into sin and no man is perfect, just keep trying and never give up hope.

This is where grace comes into play.

Seeking God’s Purpose: A Journey with Jesus (Part 2)

How to Please God

  1. Seek him
  2. Turn away from sin or ask him to help you to turn away from sin
  3. Showing compassion
  4. Reading the word to grow in Wisdom, Knowledge, and Understanding
  5. Give all of yourself to Jesus and never look back.

He is the way and the life to eternity. You cannot get to the Father without him.

I have a question to ask. What has the world done for you so far?

Open vintage book on wooden table near window with steaming cup of tea and glasses
An open vintage book on a wooden table by a sunny window with a steaming cup of tea

World’s Offer

All the world has ever offered you are:

  • heartache
  • depression
  • lost in the world
  • confused
  • angry
  • indebt
  • betrayal
  • false identity
  • turning away from the people whom God placed into your life to help you get to the next chapter of your life.
  • entertaining life of sin that leads you to destruction and eternal death
  • imprisonment of the mind or sometimes even physically
  • addictions of all kinds
  • trapped

The list goes on and on, if I had kept going it could write a whole book with it.

Question to you.

What has the world offered you that you thought was something good but turned out to be something that was actually bad for you?

For me I had thought that some of the people that came into my life were good for me but came to find out that having them in my life kind of set my progress to reaching where God needed me to be by years or months away.

I was having a hard time letting go, when God was trying clean the house around me.

All it did was bring chaos, confusion, anger, heartache, depression and so much more. But I thank God for getting me through it and helping me to grow stronger.

Please share your experiences in the comments below, your testimony or story so others can know that they are not alone on this journey

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Seeking God’s Purpose: A Journey with Jesus (Part 1)

What does the world offer?

With all of our chasing or running after worldly possessions, what have we really gained that is eternal?

Peace that surpasses all understanding?

Sound mind, body and health?

Salvation from eternal damation?

Freedom?

Wisdom?

Knowledge?

Understanding?

All these things come with giving your life to Christ.

We should be seeking the Heavenly Father, Lord Jesus, and to have a close relationship with the Holy Spirit that actually lives within us.

All things on earth are temporary gains, that fades when we leave this world, but everything with Christ is eternal.

We should seek pleasure in reading and knowing the Father’s words.

Through the Father’s words, we would know the Father’s Will for our lives.

Rather than wanting to know what is going on with the Kardashian or any celebrity.

My rule of thumb is this, will all these celebrities that I am suppose to care about, will they get me into heaven?

If the answer is no then, it is meaningless.

We should be getting to know about the biggest celebrity, whom we rarely celebrate and whom we should be celebrating everyday.

Jesus Christ!

Radiant figure in white robes with glowing light and clouds surrounding
A radiant figure emerges from clouds with open arms and glowing light

Jesus came into this world an innocent man, whom was just about doing his Heavenly Father’s business.

Saving us from walking on the wrong path, that we can never come back from once we leave this world.

Are worldly possessions more important than making our soul and spirit align with the Will of the Father?

For me I use to try chasing after material things such as money, having a lot of friends in my life and now I love it when it is just me, God and my family.

Nothing else matters to me.

All the money and fame gained through living a sinful life only leads to destruction and not salvation.

Have we ever taken time to read the word, meditate on the word and then go to the Lord and ask him what is the true purpose of him creating you?

What has he brought you to this world to do?

What gift or gifts has he placed inside you that is useful in his Kingdom?

Do you know one of the greatest failures in this world is never seeking God to really know your full potential in his Kingdom before you ever depart or leave this world.

But instead we are chasing after things of the world that will never save your soul from eternal hell.

We are allowed to enjoy some things in this world but make sure they reflect Christ in you.

Whenever you do something ask yourself. Is this something Christ would be pleased with or do?

Living for the world and doing worldly things is something you can never come back from once you die and leave this world.

It’s okay for man to fall, but as long as you keep getting back up that is all Jesus wants to see.

Waterfall and river with glowing words representing the Word of God as living water in a natural landscape
A serene landscape portrays the Word of God flowing as living water through a vibrant valley.

1 John 2:15-17:

“Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.”

“For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world“

“And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.“

He wants to see you trying.

Testimonies / Questions

Testimonies, comments or question are welcome.

Finding Faith Through Loss: My Journey

My salvation journey has always been on and off, especially growing up in an African Christian household. I was raised in a household where going to church was a must; there was no other choice about church.

Fast ahead to me as an adult, now married with a family of my own. The shift came for me when we lost my one and only younger sister unexpectedly.

It was a tough time for my mom and me.

Going through this strengthened our bond with each other as family. It also drew us closer to God. This was due to constant prayer and reading of scripture.

The Loss

I had to leave my husband with our soon-to-be two-year-old daughter. I traveled all the way to Seattle, Washington, to see my sister.

I saw her battling for her life.

I remember before getting to Seattle while on the plane. I was constantly saying a silent prayer. I cried out to God to please save her and asked for a miracle.

Between my mom and myself, we had to make plans on going out there. My mom managed to get a flight the next day.

I was finally found a flight two to three days later.

I finally saw my sister. The sight of her broke my heart. I tried to stay strong for my mom, as her oldest daughter. As her oldest I had to be there for her.

Seeing my sister on that hospital bed stirred many emotions in me. Constantly putting my trust in God for a miracle.

During our stay, we read scriptures Psalm 91 for protection of God over her or Psalm 23 to her. We prayed and talked to her. We also encouraged her to push through while trusting God.

I was getting closer to God. He was showing me things through dreams and visions.

The day we went there to see her last, I woke up having a dream. In it, God told me He’s got her. She is with Him.

The joy and happiness I felt were immense. I thought we were going to get her back. I was thinking he meant he’s got her and will save her.

But that was not the case. He was actually telling me she is with him. He is taking her to heaven with him.

The Acceptance

We accepted it as the will of God. Over the past few years, my sister had been battling with so many issues in her life. We believed God told her to come home. He saw she was not ready for other things to come her way in the future.

I was upset with myself. I felt that I should have been there for her more. I needed to be more available, loving, compassionate, and accepting. That maybe by doing these thing I have saved her.

Has any ever felt guilty for not being more involved in the life of their loved ones? How did you get through it?

After that, I was given several visions of her all throughout the day from God.

In one of my visions, I saw her in traditional Yoruba wedding attire. She looked flawless and had no blemishes. She radiated with a beautiful smile and was dancing.

It was like a wedding celebration that was taking place, which i believe is the groom welcoming his bride. Which biblical Christ symbolizes the groom and my sister as the bride into the Heavenly kingdom.

With this vision knew God was telling me she has passed over to the heavenly realm.

I was happy and sad at the same time. I had to accept this because, at the end of the day, God’s will always prevails.

Have you ever had visions or dream about your someone’s passing?

How long did it take to accept it?

I finally told my mom she had already passed over. We needed to let her go.

I can’t imagine how my mom felt as a mother who lost her baby. I understand because I can’t imagine losing my own daughter.

I went from being an older sister to being the only child left. My daughter is now my mom’s only grandchild and source of happiness.

And my daughter also lost an aunt. She was getting to know her. She loved being around her whenever we saw her.

How did you break the news to little ones about the passing of an older relative?

My sister was later pronounced brain dead; February 22nd of 2023 was the hardest day for our family.

We got to meet people who cared for her. Some of my sister’s coworkers came to say their final goodbyes. Friends also visited.

We had to make plans about her burial. But, I had to go home and attend to my family. While I was out there, my daughter got very sick and needed me to be home.

While going through this i was also constantly praying for God to let her soul rest in peace.

I learned a valuable lesson from losing my sister. That lesson was that life is too short. We should not waste time on unnecessary things that God is trying to get us out of those things.

What valuable lessons did you learn from God?

I had to leave my mom out there with some friends and family and fly back.

The Adjustment

My husband and daughter kept me so busy during all this. I did not have time to process everything. I couldn’t find a moment to myself.

I was also juggling work, planning a funeral, and taking care of a soon-to-be two-year-old little girl.

And the final kicker of it all was that my job knew I was going through loss. They did not care. They decided to let me go in the middle of everything.

What crazy thing or things happened to you while dealing with the loss of a family member?

The period from February to the month of June felt like one of the longest. I wasn’t capable of processing everything yet.

But through all these things God was faithful and true.

A month right after my job let me go, God blessed with a better job with more flexibility. To that i give him glory and honor.

What blessings did you get after going through loss?

I guess I was bottling everything up unintentionally and trying to stay strong.

Around this time, I was not strengthening my relationship with God. I was merely going through the motions of my duties as the oldest daughter.

I had become the only child of my mom.

It is now March 25, 2026, and three years have passed. I have come full circle to have a relationship with Christ. I ask Him to strengthen my faith each day.

Reading the word of the Father, which is like water to my heart where my faith is housed.

While constantly praying, seeking him through scripture, prayer and now being capable of actually fasting, while trying to emulate Christ.

My relationship went from up and down to God finally arresting my heart and turning my heart back to him.

How did God grab your attention to focus on him?

Now I can’t imagine a life without the Heavenly Father. I do not want to ever go back to the old me. I have tasted the world. I have seen the world. I know what the world has.

After experiencing Christ, I know the difference. I do not miss anything in the world.

What is your own experience with Christ?

After giving my life, I am aware of the Holy Spirit in me. I am now capable of giving up the things of the world. I do not want to be a part of it.

The veil the enemy placed over my eyes has been lifted. The greatest gift that Christ gave me was salvation.

I pray for salvation for the world. I hope those that do not know him will get to experience him.

Once they experience him, they never go back because walking with Christ is walking in freedom.

So by me writing this blog is my way of giving back to the Heavenly Father, and Christ Jesus.

This is my way of thanking God for my salvation. I pray that anyone reading this experiences the true joy and peace.

What are you doing to thank God for the salvation he has given you?

These blessings come from the one who died on the cross. He rose from the grave and freed the souls held captive by Satan. He then took them into heaven.

With giving ones life to Christ brings redemption, freedom, joy, happiness and so much more. I just want the world to really try him and there is no better time than now.

Life is too short. Anything can happen at any moment. The time that you think you have is cut short.

Comments/Testimonies

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